and on and on

So 2 days now, got some sleep earlier, just woke up and watching another one of the demon bitches (from NOW referred to ad db) shit fookin programmes. Why is it that god punishes me with this crap, ok. Ok, so it might not be that bad and at least I have a place to stay now, even if it is destroying my soul staying here. Soon hopefully I will be strong enough to start running and training in my ju jitsu again. I'm running out of time and getting to old to keep doing this, one day I will just say enoughs enough and shoot up the big one, believe me if I get to speak to a god he better be trained in martial arts cos I got some cosmic kick ass to deal out, chances are though ill be going down not up, I've never know so much hate inside me since the db worked her magic last june.